Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Religious Quest

There is a lot going on in life right now... My pregnancy will be done in about 6 weeks, my oldest child will be starting pre-school soon, and I'm beginning potty-training my almost-2-year-old. I haven't had much time to sit and really think about what I believe in.

Since taking a break back in March, I've realized that no matter what way I may go, I will always have Pagan tendencies. I have just seen, felt, and experience too much on that side that I have enjoyed very much and am not willing to pretend it didn't happen. It's something that I could never let go.

I've been going to Jehovah's Witness meetings every Sunday and doing a Bible study with them every Tuesday morning. I enjoy it, mainly because I love to learn and understand how people worship Deity. But even though I enjoy spending time with them, and actually agree more with their interpretation of the Bible more than any other Christian sect, it's still something that I don't see myself dedicating myself to. It's such a strict belief system. Granted, they are happy and secure in their beliefs, but it just seems so narrow in areas and I just can't make myself wrap around that.

Right now, spiritually, I'm not forcing anything and just going with the flow. I love the people at Kingdom Hall and have become friends with a few. My daughters love being there and being with them, so I know they have good souls and are wonderful people. I just think I'm going to work it my way somehow.