Full Worm Moon 2016

I'm not going to blather on like I normally do. My health is not permitting me a good week but I'm doing the best I can. Yesterday was the full moon and I pulled a card from the Oracle deck just as I've been doing the past couple months. This one depicted three women; the women on the left and right were dressed in elegant Asian dresses while the woman in the middle was dressed plainly and held a large rose. The fortune on the back read: "When you gaze upon a rose, enjoy her beauty - don't count her petals. " I guess I need to slow down, and if not slow down, then I need to see the beauty in all of the mundane. I need to find the joy in the every-day.

Ostara 2016

Yesterday was a very simple day. Since it was a Sunday, I spent it with the children. Since it was the first of Spring and therefore, Ostara, I bought them all ice cream and we planted flowers and made a little windowsill garden out of the planting pails. We spent the day enjoying the sunshine and playing co-op on a Zelda 3ds game.

I didn't celebrate Ostara until today. This, too, was simple as I don't have my own personal altar space and have to wing it. I kept it very low-key and am now sitting here watching the candles burn out. Someone on Facebook posted a lovely prayer that they themselves how found on Tumblr about a year ago. I used it for my ritual. It goes:

"May you find fertility in the way you wish to have it:
A fertile imagination
A fertile career
A fertile garden
A fertile social life
A fertile body
A fertile hobby
Whatever your seeds of choice may be, I hope they grow for you in the way you dream of."

I think this pretty much covers it. I'm looking forward to Spring.

Third New Moon 2016

I haven't done much contemplation this new moon, mostly because I am in a lot of physical pain. I am having issues with my right ovary to the point that if it doesn't get any better by May, I will have to have it laparoscopically removed.

Last night's card pulled was the Star. According to http://rider-waite.tarotsmith.net/, "The summary of several tawdry explanations says that it is a card of hope. On other planes it has been certified as immortality and interior light. For the majority of prepared minds, the figure will appear as the type of Truth unveiled, glorious in undying beauty, pouring on the waters of the soul some part and measure of her priceless possession. But she is in reality the Great Mother in the Kabalistic Sephira Binah, which is supernal Understanding, who communicates to the Sephiroth that are below in the measure that they can receive her influx."

I only understand about half of what that says, so I'm going with Truth Unveiled and Hope. I'm hoping this rings true in my life. Right now, I'm going through a lot of things. My physical health, as was previously mentioned, is not doing so well. I'm having issues with my mental health as well and hitting setbacks. I'm having financial problems and other issues, and I'm exhausted trying to keep my mentality in one piece. I've almost given up on multiple occasions. So, here's for HOPE, because I need it.